as written on; Thursday, October 11, 2007
9:08:00 PM | 0 comments
you just let go;; chingy
Times square today wasn't exactly what I expected.
Well, to be frank, last week, I thought that today would be one of the best days of my life. Then just 3 days ago, I thought that it'd be one of the worst days of my life. Well, I was wrong on both accounts.
It was right in between.
In the beginning, it was actually really fun. Then, I just saw some stuff that reminded me of some stuff which just depressed me to no end. Then I decided to forget about those stuff and have fun. HAH. Only worked a little. Those stuff were constantly on my mind, they still are.
I mean, I am happy for Gwen and Pei, I really am. I just wished that I could join in their happiness and just forget about everything in the past.
Okay, I'm lieing. I want to relive the past more than forget about it.
Too bad it just isn't possible in the slightest.
Well, to be frank, last week, I thought that today would be one of the best days of my life. Then just 3 days ago, I thought that it'd be one of the worst days of my life. Well, I was wrong on both accounts.
It was right in between.
In the beginning, it was actually really fun. Then, I just saw some stuff that reminded me of some stuff which just depressed me to no end. Then I decided to forget about those stuff and have fun. HAH. Only worked a little. Those stuff were constantly on my mind, they still are.
I mean, I am happy for Gwen and Pei, I really am. I just wished that I could join in their happiness and just forget about everything in the past.
Okay, I'm lieing. I want to relive the past more than forget about it.
Too bad it just isn't possible in the slightest.
I've already let go 99%, but I'm still hanging on to the last 1% 'cause of hope. Too bad hope has just shattered me.
a thousand words couldn't bring you back,
i know because i've tried.
neither could a thousand tears,
i know because i've cried.
you left a broken heart & happy memories too
but i never wanted memories
i only wanted you.
xoxo, chingy.